I hAve nOt bEen mYself lAtelY... well... u gUys mAy nOt hAVe sEen it... but Wei dEr did..
i gEt angRy ovEr mAny little thingS, irritAted eAsilY anD mY attentiOn drifted aWay freQuentlY..
angry - i meaN reAlli angrY.. i will screAm!! sCreAm at hiM anD see him fEel sO hUrt... thEn regretting mY actiOns..
angry ovEr? some little little fAvours he jUst cAnt fulfiL due tO tiMe cOnstraints... aNd sOmetimes iT wAsnt even hiS fAult!! i blEw mY tOp yesterdAy again, fOR the third tiMe thiS weEk.. third tiMe le lEhss... juSt becOs i cAll hiM anD he sAid tO cAll mi bAck lAter.. well.. hE did lAter.. onlY tO gEt tOld off by mi...
mY shoRt temper hAs mAde hiM sO sad.. =~( i cOuld see huRt in hiS eyes... i duNno whY i didnt cAre aT thAt tiMe..
i wilL purpOsely mAke hiM angry tOo... buDden hE didnt...
thE mOre nice he is tO mi, the moRe i dOnt appreciate...
irritAted when hE cAlls mi.. i meAn when i Am with mY frens.. i will giVe hiM mY moSt siAnz vOice to tALk to him...
mAybe cOs of mY worries thAt i didnt tell hiM..
mAybe juSt cOs i hAvent gEt enough sleep sinCe work started..
i uSEd tO tell hiM everything, bE it mY jOys or sorrOws...
buDden nOw i hide it tO mYself..
i kind oF lOst mY sense oF secUrity...
i aM afrAid thAT he cOuldnt take mY noNsense onE dAy...
i nEeda change back tO mY old self qUicklY...
bUt hOw??
mY attentiOn alsO drifted awAy whEn he tAlks tO mi.. i will thinK oF other thingS instead of listening... i coUldnt get mY mind peAce... =~(
i wOrry and wOrry.. over nOthing?!
hE realised all oF thiS.. mi tOo...
i Told hiM to leave mi alOne foR a few dAys...
but he didnt agree..
hE Asked mi tO share everything with hiM...
but it seemed liKe i didnt haVe muCh pRoblem..
i aM hAppie with mY freNs, fAMily etC..
buT noT with hiM...
cAN anYone tell me whY?
Sobss*
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iTs liddAt de.. i've alWAys been liddat to jj sinCe.. dAy 1? heheZ, i hAve lOw tOlerAnce agAinst beinG tieD dOwn/ bOssed aRd. peRhaps of the inERt individuAlism and.. sinGlehOod? sOmetimes we juS need timE fOR ourSElves. *emphAsizing on sinGle fReedOm again! hA... i gOnna be a cOmmuniSt or sOrt soon.
i tHink u cAn tEll him a fEw mOre times and.. iGnOre his cAlls? its bAd but its beTTer to gEt bAck ur old sElf befORe this continuEs =/
dOn wORRie, eveRything is gOing tO be juSt finE. and mAKE suRe u tRy to haVE mAxi. slp deSpite of wORK. tAke cARez =)
ohhh~!! I tink u too stressed le.. maybe u try to open ur heart n pour away all ur thoughts to him? everyone do haf mood swings ba.. maybe u nowadays r like tat.. maybe he tied u too tight? hmm.. jux hope tat u 2 can be
ok le.. =) anyting,jux approach us too.. we will always be dere.. ("._.") a smile for u jing..
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