A pinhole of my life.

18th may -


i failed.

In circuit i managed to not get any demerit points.
But sway things happened to the sway me.






On my way out of the circuit, i stop at the zebra crossing. i look left, look right, then left again. nobody. then this guy was dashing all ahead and beside my car.. After i confirm that he not crossing the road, i move a little then he suddenly dashed across the road. DOTS! idiot lO..

Then i lost my confidence! i know i will sure fail..







then got 1 immediate failure..

i tot i can turn right before the straight going vehicle gets to me. POOR JUDGEMENT. i managed to do so but the tester said i shld slow down, giving way to it... and that i shldn't let it slow down. becos of this, i got many points deducted like neber give way, neber slow down, improper position at junctions etc.. 24 points.



DISAPPOINTED with myself.



My instructor told me before the test that as long as i maintain my standard i will pass. BUt i disappoint him.. i thank him for all the scoldings he has given me. hahas!





i kept apologising to him after the test. he was quite disappointed i guess. once i took my results slip to him he smiled and asked, "pass liaos ahs?'


i was like 'sorry.. i failed..'



He said sometimes it's becos of the different judgements made by me and the tester. To the tester i may not execute safety acts enough. So he concluded that i have gained an important experience and be more confident next test.







he said i will learn from him again in mid june. A few more lessons b4 i take my re test in august. This time no buying of new things to pamper myself frm june to aug. Going to pay for my own lessons!



if i say i am not upset, i am lying. Tears welled up in my eyes on my way back home.
But they never roll down my face.. Cos after i saw many frens' msgs, i felt better.. much better i guess..!





it's ok to fail.. as long as i keep trying, i will pass someday! jia you!!




My dad called me and once i told him i failed, he laughed so loudly. Same reaction as my mum. they are so bad!





But they said they will sponsor my fees till i passed... But NO!! i wont take a single cent frm them for my fees anymore..



God has blessed me with good parents.



BUt.. i knew they have spoiled me.. i am still over protected by them..








Whenever dad is at home he will take food to my table then took my empty plates wanting to wash for me.. Times and times again i had to remind him that i will take my own food and wash my own dishes but he always forgot.




then when i fall sick, he fed me panadol, take me to the doctor etc.



first days of school - pri sch, sec sch and poly he took me there. now he wants to take me to NTU on my 1st day of school.. DOTs!







i only know how to suan them.. ooOo.. it's time to learn to be more independent.. i promised to do more household chores for my mum!! i don't want to be a pampered baby anymore! i am already 20, not 2..!