A pinhole of my life.

I haven book my driving test date.

Today my instructor called me. I didn't answer.


Wei Der has been encouraging me to hold on during my lessons days. But now.. he said..







"If u want to give up, just give up.. In life, there isn't really any big thing that u have given up before right? It's okie not to fulfil all the things in your life. What matters most is that u r happy.."








I was damn comforted when he said that.







Jun Wen was hurrying me to book my test date for the past week. Then i kept saying.. "AH YO.. tomorrow lahs.. Still early.."


Then there will be tomorrow..
Another tomorrow..

Never ending tomorrows.. HAHA









One of my frens has been kind to say to lend me his car and he will teach me.






My eyes widen when he said that. OH GOD, my tester has his every reason not to pass me.




If anything happen to us, how am i going to answer to your loved ones.. and my loved ones?












.. well.. i would rather pay for my driving lessons. My instructor has his experience and skills to protect our safety.










Shld i call my instructor back.. Or shld i not?

Shld i..?

Or shld i not?

Pls pass me a rose to peel its petals, somebody pls.













That night.. i came back and saw fishy not moving in its house. i was so super scared.. i cried loudly in front of the fish tank. Then i tot i saw it moving. It didnt move again.. A lil confused. i tot it's my imagination.









While msging wei der to inform him about the bad news, i saw it swimming actively again.. Woo Hoo..! BIG SCARE.







Wei der was laughing throughout the night. Cos fighting fish has a very strong fighting spirit and character. It wont die so easily. i DUNNO mahs. Ai Er!











Sometimes.. Some people make u upset.. Intentionally or unintentionally..


U forgive those who unintentionally hurt u.. Wat about those who intentionally does so?










I remembered God's teaching. He said..

When someone strikes u across your left cheek, do not strike back. Instead show him your right cheek (for him to slap u again)








It's something like that. The Bible said it in a nicer manner.
But... How long will i be able to let them keep striking me?
My Lord.. Can u give me an answer?









Unappreciative people hurts me.. Left me thinking and thinking.. Cant focus on my studies.. After wat i have done, is it still not enough?








Wei Der said..




"U have every worth to feel happy as others. There is no need to feel inferior towards others. U dont owe them any unit of happiness. If they are upset because u r happy, let it be. U dont have to please everyone to feel happy."











God knows that i am not strong.. So he sent Wei Der to me to make me stronger.. Yes.. i finally am sure.. People who are unsupportive and unappreciative are not worthy to feel upset over..













'Spiderman' always have this dialogue...
"Everyone has a choice. It all depends on u"





Yups.. Everyone has a choice.. I choose to be happy.